It was in a Lyon-based medical office that my mother finally settled and ended her career. She worked as a secretary, and her central position in the clinic placed her right in the middle of attention—from both male patients and even the doctors. It was also there that she met Carlo, a regular patient…but not just that.
Her hours were set in stone, and every evening she finished work at 4:15 p.m., which typically gave her 45 minutes to pick me up from the middle school I’d eventually wound up in.
After multiple absences and repeating grades, my parents had enrolled me in a Catholic school. This school wasn’t exactly focused on academic performance; they cared more about parents’ income levels. So there I was, stuck in Latin and catechism classes that fascinated me no more than math or physics. Routine set in quickly. Every day I’d get out at 5 p.m. and have to wait for my mother, who was supposed to finish at 4:15 and had those 45 minutes to drive the short mile to pick me up. But there was always a last-minute errand, the car not starting, a doctor asking her to stay a bit longer… Eventually, she’d show up around 5:30, then later, and later still.
When she finally picked me up, we’d head home to Saint-Priest in a rush. We’d take the highway, and every night, she’d have her routine rendezvous with “Father Denis”—a nickname my sister and I had given to an elderly patient at the clinic. Poor Father Denis struggled to move at age 80; after all, he only had one leg left. But each evening, there he was, standing proudly with his cane, waiting on a shopping center parking lot along the highway to our suburban home. My mom’s green Diane sped toward the highway, and there was Father Denis, lifting his cane to salute his “young” mistress. And each time, fear surged in me as my mom took her eyes off the road to wave back. Naturally, I kept this to myself.
Over time, I developed what I thought was an extraordinary ability to sit and wait. I’d spend hours outside that school, scanning the distance for that green car that always showed up a bit later each evening.
One night, though, I’d had enough. After two solid hours of waiting, I decided to take the bus home to our distant suburb. I got back around 7:30 and found my sister there. My dad arrived, as usual, at 8:00, and shortly after, my mom came in.
She entered without a word, walking straight toward me. When she reached me, she slapped me so hard I stumbled. In front of my dad, she yelled, “I’ve been waiting two hours in front of the school! Where were you?”
I tried to catch my breath and replied, “But I—”
I didn’t get to finish before a second slap cut my words short.
Then my dad came over, adding a third slap as if to make it clear there was only one version of the truth—and it wasn’t mine.
And so, I returned to silence…